“Social Media” Is So Very Bittersweet

January 7th, 2010

So here we are, each before his / her screen, in our respective space and time, interfacing. And, regardless of what’s going on around and within said screen, at this moment we are all unquestionably alone. Our attention is focused. There is a vague, pale glow on our fingertips and nails, on the points of our noses, and reflecting in our eyes – and there is something hypnotic about it all.

In a different tab, we can instantly view a running stream of information on the lives of our friends and enemies, and perhaps more than a couple of strangers. This stream is updated with the latest, up to the minute changes, comprising an easy to access and easy to read dossier of private life fragments, the likes of which would likely have taken the FBI days, months, or years of hard field work to compile only a few short years ago. I suppose now all they’ve got to do is “friend” us and then double check when needed. But then, it’s not like we have anything to hide, right?

At any moment, and at will, we can access any manner of entertainment or diversion, from the purely escapist romp, to the most extreme or lurid erotic fantasy – and anything in between, of course, good and bad and neutral. Our minds can walk down the streets of foreign cities – at the very least the vivid photographic imprints thereof – or through entirely imaginary spaces – we can talk to complete strangers under the veil of almost total anonymity, and we can read the entire works of William Shakespeare, if we so choose.

And, of course, many of us, very much like yours truly, see the need to add to the cacophony, to send forth a burst of ourselves, little thoughts and opinions here and there, with the illusion or hope that those bits and pieces, in the grand scheme of things, actually “matter.” We communicate, or try to, in this very exciting and technically brilliant world, for the same reasons anyone ever does or ever did, whether they were read/heard or not.

And while we do, undoubtedly communicate, and while I am hardly a Luddite, and would not stoop to blindly condemn this new (but rapidly aging) cyberworld so many of us live in, we cannot claim that this ghostly meeting of ours is without its sour side. Take me, for example, sitting here, hammering out these words. The first question is, perhaps, the ubiquitous “why?”. The “what?” follows as almost an afterthought. The “how,” of course, is for the skilled engineers to know. And then it comes around and back again to the “why?” and the many derivations thereof (“for whom?”, “for what?”, and etc.).

And while writing is nearly always a painful and solitary act, writing in this ether-world (surrounded by dislocated bits and pieces of one’s “social life” suspended as silent, fleshless pixels) can, on occasion, give rise to brand new species of loneliness and wonder. And none of it, of course, is new. It started perhaps with the Television, and perhaps with the radio, and perhaps with the printing press. It has just never been this “interactive” before all this “Social Media” stuff came about, and hence has never been nearly as immersive. And, most importantly, never has this much “data” been generated at such a rapid rate.

All this, as well as the pros and cons, has been discussed at length and with a great deal more insight, elsewhere. All of the above is merely a preface to a simple observation. The inner world is expanding outward in a strange new way – our minds are either sprouting active proxies or leaving behind shells of attempted communication in cyberspace. Wastelands and gardens are forming. Memes are emerging and mutating and dying. Every minute, this brave new world expands and explodes anew. Every day it is different. And, though we have all this power at our fingertips, that entire monstrous and fascinating world, we are still just as lonely as we’ve ever been.

Bucket List – An Essential for Every Warrior

January 4th, 2010

Nothing gets you to re-evaluate your life quite like a crisis of some magnitude. Thus, I make sure to have one every so often. Just to keep things fresh, really. I’ve found that the human body and mind can only handle so much stress before truly weird things begin to happen, and that’s where the real life juice starts flowing. Through the cracks and the rifts beyond which lies a sea of unquiet and riotous stars. Every atom in the universe calls out to you, quietly mournful, begging and pleading with you to return, to know that you are one again. And the reaper, oh the reaper!

In any case, I figured that I needed a bit of focus in my life, since, as I mentioned earlier, I have been too distracted by trivial matters, so I have decided to begin compiling a list of basic goals which I would like to accomplish within this very limited lifetime. Some are fairly simple, some are not. Some seem fairly simple, but are, in fact, not. Some I care about more than others. As time goes on, I will likely think of more items to add to the list, or reconsider existing items. I’ll keep it here in the public eye. That should keep me somewhat beholden. As one self imposed rule, while some of the items on the list will likely require money to cross off (most of the entries involving travel, for instance), none of the items should directly deal with the generation of money as a goal (though some may or may not generate revenue in the future). In my opinion, money should never be an end in itself.

For today, I will define some basic broad brushstrokes.

Broad Brush Strokes (Work):

- Write at least one novel I am fairly proud of.
- Write at least 10 short stories I am fairly proud of.
- Put out at least one collection of 100 poems that I am fairly proud of.
- Make on average one body of work (that I am proud of) per year.
- Make at least one good adventure video game.
- Make at least one good video game in general.
- Have a play I wrote produced (or produce it myself).

Broad Brush Strokes (Personal):

- Fall in love again.
- Get married – or find someone to love for a lifetime committment (marriage is just a word, after all).
- Visit at least 10 major US cities, and surroundings.
- Visit at least 10 major world cities, and surroundings.

Tomorrow and Tomorrow

December 30th, 2009

“Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life’s but a walking shadow, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.”

- Shakespeare, “Macbeth”

That’s always been one of my favorite bits. I suppose it is somewhat relevant on the cusp of what is called a “new year”, another revolution of a gassy, mossy rock around a molten ball of fire, celebrated vaguely as some kind of hopeful transition. For us Russians, the New Year’s is the biggest holiday of the year. Seemingly due to the secularism brought forth and essentially enforced by the Communist Party, the traditions of Christmas (including the tree, the lights, the presents, the fat man in a suit) were all transferred to New Year’s Eve. This seems to have stuck, and is the case even now. As a result, to the Russian Christians, at least from my brief experience, Christmas really is a primarily religious occasion.

Alas, upon immigration, it is very difficult to keep that New Year’s spirit going. Hence, some years, I , and I am sure many other fellow expats, especially in my still fairly young generation, are left in a sad holiday limbo. I personally am not Jewish enough for Hanukkah (I am Jewish by blood only, to be honest) and most certainly not Christian enough for Christmas (I am not Christian in any sense of the word), so all that’s left is the secular stuff. New Year’s is the only viable option, and it really strongly depends on spirit, and that varies from year to year. I’ve had years when it was almost like we were back in the Old Country again, and I’ve had years when it was just another day, or worse, just another bad day.

Which leads me to one of my primary points. Despite my mystical leanings, which admittedly have been severely tried of late, I have to say that, very likely, nothing of any major significance will happen in 2012 (excepting the usual stuff). Unless, of course, the opportunistic “Elite” decide to make something happen, which is not out of the question. All dates do have a cosmological signature, of course, but believing that a birthday, an anniversary, or even the completion of an ongoing cycle holds any special significance outside of that assigned to it by consciousness would be silly at best. We all know that. We celebrate dates because it gives us a cause to celebrate – and we need that, badly.

So, Happy Upcoming New Year to all. Tomorrow, our rock will most likely spin as it usually spins, and people and animals will live and die, as comic and tragic as ever, as they do every day, every hour,  minute, and second.

That being said, my birthday is a mere four and a half months away. You should begin shopping or putting away now. I am expecting a lot.

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